Losing Motivation

Lately, I’ve been considering retiring my blog. I’ve continued to write posts, and even created a new blog with the hopes of directing my work into two more specific channels. However, my desire to publish anything I’ve written, unfortunately largely due to fear of criticism, has drastically fallen. I can’t pinpoint exactly why I feel […]

I’m Disabled (And My Doctor Doesn’t Know)

A few years ago I was diagnosed with Hypermobility, a condition where multiple joints in my body move more than they should. This is a common condition, and usually doesn’t cause many issues for people with it. However, it can cause pain, and in extreme cases this is called Joint Hypermobility Syndrome (JHS), where the […]

Self-Preservation

Sometimes, we’re faced with situations that can only be lose-lose for our mental health. Boxed into a corner, anxious, and unsure of the best choice to make, we weigh up our options. Our instinct is to self preserve, but what happens when either choice we’re faced with is an act of anti self-preservation? How can […]

The Whole Package: Depression & FOMO

Unfortunately, for those of us with depression and/or anxiety, FOMO is a pretty damn common emotion to experience. Usually, it comes alongside the frustration that we could have joined in, but our mental illnesses were holding us back, mentally or physically. Yet arguably worse, in some ways, is the FOMO that comes as a result […]

Femininity

Femininity is a continually contested concept, from traditional values, to cultural difference, the oft-depricated ‘Feminist Agenda’, and more frequently discussed in modern society – the variety in gender presentation and performance. When I think about gender, Judith Butler is the first to come to mind. Her theories on performativity break down the idea of a […]

This post is spontaneous

As you can tell by the title, I haven’t planned this post – deliberately. I’m having a day which is rather common for me, where I have no physical energy but lots of mental energy. It comes as a result of depression, usually when I haven’t slept much (definitely have not recently), yet my brain […]

Routines… are shit.

Many therapists and doctors will tell you that routine is an important part of recovery for someone with depression/a mood disorder. Yet it doesn’t take a genius to know that for a student, routine is pretty much a made up concept. Especially for an unemployed humanities student on holiday (sigh). It’s difficult, therefore, to maintain […]