blue light flashing against white gloss paint lighting up the dark corridor then fading into the darkness with a wail. two follow in the 7-seater people carrier, crawling through the 20-mile-an-hour zone in the half-dark of dawn. “the coffee shop opens soon” “should we wait?” we carry on driving down empty streets, the imposing building […]
I’m 4 and I think you’re 5. Above, the grown ups are discussing speech, language, academics we don’t understand. We sit on the floor of a family restaurant, “it’s endearing”. I’m 18 and you’re 20, and we’re sat around the table sipping wine. We’ve said grace, the Jewish-Catholic-Evangelical-Atheists, and the grown ups laugh at when […]
I have demons living in my head. They come out to play and whisper to me “Why don’t you die?” They divide and multiply, They fill my head, take control of my body, Paralyse my limbs and steal the oxygen from my lungs until I am Gasping For Breath. They tell me it hurts and […]
Sugar crunches between molars, slipping down my throat with the last dregs of coffee, a sickly, sugared water. Tilt my head back to drain the last drops of energy, eyes closed until the day has to properly begin. The mug clatters to the surface, breaking the calm, the clock resumes its incessant ticking and the […]
5 years, half a decade. At 22, I’ve now spent a large portion of my life without you. I’m an adult now, a person you never got to know. I’m used to not seeing you – I’ve moved out, I don’t expect you to be there. But the holidays are coming up and you’ve never […]
I have to preface this post with a disclaimer that the way CF is dealt with is very different in the US and the UK, and as I am UK based, my opinion of the way this film was framed does come with biases – so let’s get started. It’s been a while now since […]
It’s 16 days into the new year and high time I write something clichéd about resolutions and self improvement. In reality, having an arbitrary day where we all vow that “this will be my year”, while continuing to shitpost online and fail to go to the gym, is total bollocks. But that’s totally fine – […]
I once read a tweet saying that it was strange to enter adulthood having suffered with mental illness throughout your teen years, because you suddenly realise that you have decided to stick around and you’re totally responsible for your own life. This is not to say that I never intended to make it into adulthood, […]
Happy New Year folks, I’m back with another post on the thing I know best, music! Kidding… Please enjoy a very honest, very mediocre not-even-review of one of my favourite artists who I recommend highly for this new year. In 2017, Jeff Rosenstock made a massive impact on my life for the better. For those […]
The holidays are here and I finally have a week or so where a blog post is feasible – though I probably should be writing my dissertation, but I’ve missed my blog so here we are. The past few months have been crazy; university has been running me off my feet, and I’ve been ill […]
The Jellyfish Diaries 